In my philosophy class I have to apologize to the class tomorrow for depriving them of my contribution to the class for being gone the last two sessions.  And while I used to be the student in back laughing at the individuals that had to do this, I am now the one who has to stand front and center.  Mr. Jones, a fellow class mate had an interesting way of apologizing during a previous class period.  After saying what is written for us to say, Mr. Jones followed with, "but I am not sorry."  So my question is, can you apologize without being sorry?  Do people automatically believe that just because you are apologizing for something that you have to feel sorry about it?  Has there ever been a time when you had to apologize without wanting to, or without wanting to feel sorry?

It is my understanding that when you apologize you are admiting regret, understanding the position that you are in, taking responsibilty for the action, and you are willing to do better.  While I do understand that position, and I take responsbility with the hope that in the near future I will not have to miss class, I do not regret that I was absence in class. 

Unfortunately there were some pressing matters that were taking place in my life that I needed to attend to.  I do not regret that I had to miss class, I do regret that my mother needed me...

Just a thought...

I bet there are millions of individuals out there who would love to write their own autobiography, and have it published.  Now before you start criticizing my thought, hear me out.  Have you ever been asked the question, "What's your story?", by a person who you just met.  Maybe it's a new co-worker, or a person you met through a mutual friend..who ever that individual might be, I wonder if it wouldnt be easier to hand them your novel and say... "Here, read this, and then you'll know."  But what about those intimate details, or the things that you are not sure you want people to know.  How far into your life would you go...How honest would you be...Would you stop doing something that you are doing right now if you knew that you had to write that novel...Many questions...any answers?

It really has been quite a while since I have written anything on here...

This summer has been an eye opener for me. And I am just going to lay everything flat out...

THERE WILL BE STRUGGLES IN YOUR LIFE!!!  And not until this summer did I realize that half the people dont want to hear about my problems and the other half are glad that I have them (because they have problems too).  There are people in our life that are going to be there for us when we are in time of need.  But STOP complaining all the time.The greater the struggle, the greater the vicotry.Dont dwell on the past, it has already happened, and you cant change it.  Look to the future and remember how to handle those situations (if they ever arise again.)We choose to be the person that we are. That is our free will.  It is in Gods grace and our faith in Him that will help us choose the right choice.

Satan walked inch by inch into some situations, and I gave that inch....he took a mile. DONT LET SATAN RULE YOU.  Push everything to the Lord.  Give it to Him and He WILL set you free.  I am a sinner.  I have lied, cheated, and hurt alot of people around me, and I am sorry for that.  There is no reason that I need to confess my sins to anyone but God.  But I need to apologize.

Stop pretending to be a different person.  Learn from others mistakes.  And move forward with your life, because whether you move or not, another day is coming tomorrow.

Take care

I have truly been blessed....

         I am staying with a family in Bethel, Ohio for a little bit--just till we find a place that is closer to where I work.  Tonight when Molly sent me out for pizza, I started to cry.  Looking past the fact that I am a very emotional person, it was not because I was sad.  It was because I was blessed.

        When I moved back to Anderson, God blessed me with a family.  Katie and Rachel were my girls, the are my sisters---the are my family.  When we all left for the summer, I didnt think that it was going to be as hard as it has been to be away from them.  But tonight on my way to get pizza (side note--I live at least 20 miutes away from civilization as of right now) I had some time to think about what God has blessed me with here in Ohio. 

      I have my team...I have my friends...and now I have a serigent home.  It is good to be home.

Take care

Found this in Gabe Reed's profile...I like it.

Some call it hypocritical.  I don't.  If I tried to hide my sins from the world, I believe that is where I would be wrong.  The fact that I show people I screw up daily shows them I am in desperate need of a Savior.  If I tried to show you I was perfect, you would have the wrong image of perfection.  Coming to the cross daily and surrendering my life to a perfect God is what I want the world to see with my life.  Mistakes, problems, my everything....I lay it down.

Take care